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Some days,
I feel the pull of the bygone
Let the violent waves crash upon
Feel the sand slip beneath the feet
Taste blood in a moment’s fury
But find alive, a heart that beats.
The gravity, n all it’s strength
In the silent greyness
Might find peace.

Written: 6 August 2015, 09:25 pm 

Reminiscence

The burnt old bridges
Why call for me to mend?
I’m just a lone soul
How could I do this alone?
The inherent need to mend
Everything that’s been jarred
The unending sense of obligation
Is a force tearing me apart.
Why don’t all questions,
Just find their own answers?
Why don’t chaotic thoughts,
Just line themselves to sense?
Why I am all abashed,
While you carry on much like,
There was a never a string attached
Never a broken word
Never a failed attempt
Never an unsaid goodbye.
Like the burnt bridge
Is invisible to your eyes.

Written: 8 August 2015, 11:14 am

Unending horizon

I sit at the shore sometimes
Looking to the unending horizon
The crimson of the setting Sun
Merging with the misty blues
Eternity, maybe for them to meet
Life’s too short to wait that long.

Written: 12 May 2015, 08:00 pm

The audacity of hope

I left,
hoping to find the new
the new in times
the new in chimes
the new in me
the courage to be

When I left,
you were around
to see me grow
to ease the blow
for when I’d fall
‘n to laugh at it all

I swayed to the tune
that was never mine
I jumped in awe
at all the shine
for the very brief time
I was alive
then sunshine eclipsed
‘n greyness abound
for once, I took
all the darkness inside
as part of the me
that I’d set out to find
there were but few
epitome of hope
that sought none from, me
bereft in thoughts
but vicious thing, hope
audacious, tenacious
through a stormy reverie
brought a beautiful peace
I found the new
albeit in different worlds
a place so numb
rarely, I feel a touch

For all it meant
I thank the relentless time
for then I knew
what was the true
in friendship ‘n love
in pain ‘n reward
making peace in past
‘n looking ahead at last

– the girl with the phoenix tattoo

Epitome of Contradiction

A cold penetrating gaze
Warmth in your embrace
Your unmoving dereliction
An epitome of contradiction.

This how your World feel?
Real, yet strangely a dream.
Dare I say a secret?
I roam in a parallel Universe.
Isn’t it waste to walk along
Yet, never together long?

My unquiet silence
Nothingness in everything
Hope against all hope
An epitome of contradiction.

Fault in her stars..

The intense calm
Before an approaching storm
Lightning struck paths
Grey skies and falling stars.
A quietude of her present
Threatened by a past
Oh so perilous future
For the fault is in her stars.

Book Review: The Fault in Our Stars

11870085Title: The Fault in Our Stars
Author: John Green
Genre: Young Adult Fiction; Romance

The Fault in Our Stars is the story of a teenage girl Hazel Grace who is suffering from terminal cancer. Only child to her parents, Hazel is bought a few extra years of life through a “tumour-shrinking medical miracle” of a medicine. But it doesn’t make her life – or whatever is left of it – any easier. On her mother’s insistence Hazel attends a cancer support group for kids, where she meets Augustus Waters. Augustus is at the meeting to support his friend Isaac, who is also suffering from cancer. The two meet and fall in love, “the way you fall asleep: slowly, and then all at once.” The story is how Augustus completely turns around Hazel’s expiry-dated life into one filled with hope and love.

This is the first of John Green’s books I have read and I must say, his writing style is exceptional. The way he portrays the lives of terminally-ill children, yet manages to keep the atmosphere light and even humourous is commendable. The characters of Hazel and Augustus, even Isaac, have been outlined so beautifully that the one reading almost feels a sense of acquaintance with them.

The character of Hazel in particular interested me so much, that I did some reading on how Green went about defining the character. Hazel is actually based on a real person, Esther Earl, who battled with thyroid cancer before her eventual death at age 16. She met Green at a Harry Potter conference in 2009 and eventually inspired the character of Hazel Grace. “She redefined the process of dying young for me”, says Green of Esther.

If I were to summarize my thoughts on this book in minimum words, it would be this: Easily the most heartbreaking, yet the most engrossing book I’ve read in a long long time. Un-put-down-able, the phrase I last used years ago for the Harry Potter series, is apt.

I started reading this at 10pm one night and kept reading till 3am. The book just took me over, absorbed me, swallowed me whole for that entire time. When I finished reading it, I realized this was what I had been looking for. The inexplicable restlessness that I almost constantly experience was quelled for the brief while that I spent reading it.

And when it ended..

Paperback trauma

There could be no better way to review the book than what Goodreads writes: Insightful, bold, irreverent, and raw, The Fault in Our Stars is award-winning author John Green’s most ambitious and heartbreaking work yet, brilliantly exploring the funny, thrilling, and tragic business of being alive and in love.

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Categories I knocked off with this book, as part of the book reading challenge 2015:

  1. A book you can finish in a day
  2. A book that made you cry

Have you been keeping up with me on the challenge? Share your reviews with me. Suggest books for me to review. Would love to hear from you all.